Christmas was rushed, S was out of town until the day after, and the food was mediocre. I had to work all the way through Christmas Eve and did not have a lot of time to prepare for my friends to arrive (they flew in from Seattle). I ended up buying pies, cheese & wine from Whole Foods, we made Trader Joes's frozen garlic pasta, and I bought cookies & coconut truffles as snacks at the last minute. I was embarrassed by my lack of preparation, but in the end, everything worked out. Most importantly, the company was spectacular.
I've heard from a lot of people that grief fades with time. I have not found that to be true. The shock is certainly gone, but the depth of my grief has not lessened one bit since losing C. No, the loss stings as much today as it did the first day; time has NOT healed all wounds. Instead, my life improved by the addition of new friendships, deeper friendships, new relationships. I lost C, but S came into my life, and I inherited his friendship with the wonderful O.
We made a toast to C -- for he is loved, even today. Now and forever.
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